I received my paiement today and I'm going to add it to my challenge money.

Paycheck : 230$

Old amount : 3780$ + 230$ =
New amount : 4010$

I'm staring at the amount in my bank right now and I couldn't believe that I have achieved it already!! In two days, it's going to be my first year challenge money anniversary. I don't know what to do with it now because I have achieved my 4K and I don't know if I want to go to London in 2009... I'll think about it! Oh yeah... I have to save for my Morocco trip. It's going to be my second 20$ challenge. I'll keep you guys post later.

I'm adding 5$ from my tip surplus last week.

Old amount: 3775$ + 5$ =
New amount: 3780$

My little sister lost my dad's camera that cost 1000$ last March, she almost lost my camera that cost 500$ a few weeks ago and she lost her nintendo DS + her games today.

I didn't care because well... It doesn't belong to me although I was pretty disappointed at my sister for forgetting things again. My brother was furious. He was saying that she is irresponsible. LOL... It's sort of hypocrite of him to say that because he is one himself and he told his friends that she lost things that belong to him. He told me that its to make things easier for his friends to understand and I know very well that it's to make a show that he is a really good brother. Like I said, he is all talk but no action so I was mocking him a little bit.

My brother wanted her to learn the value of money so he told me to make her work to repay back that amount. I was like okay... That what I suggested awhile ago. I gave him the idea to take her savings because that where it hurts the most. I took out the saving box that she has been putting the money in since last year and she has 191$. My sister saw that and she didn't say a thing. I said : ';Well... He's taking the money because you lost something expensive.' I was talking to my sister calmly about why she shouldn't take things for granted and that our parents work hard for the money. Then my mom came along and she said : What the heck are you yelling her for? I said that I didn't yell at her and that I was telling her calmly about the money she lost. My mom wasn't even listening to me and we argue a little bit. She said that I'm hurting her and that's enought. To be honest, our arguments lead to no where because she constantly changes the main subject so I asked her if she knows what I'm talking about. She said : Yes but you don't need to repeat it. I said : No, I'm not going to repeat it, I want you to tell me what I just said to her. She said : .... You were talking about money! I was like yeah but can you tell me precisely what I was telling her? She then said that she doesn't need me to repeat it. I ask her many many times the question and after five minutes I give up. I was like : Okay, whatever! No wonder daddy can't get through you without making himself look crazy.

To be honest, I got the impression that my mom feels like my sister got bullied by us. I can't say much about my brother not bullying my sister but he is pretty aggressive with her. I'm not aggressive with her, when I know that I hurt my sister, I comfort her by telling her the reason that I got mad and that next time, she should be careful and I always propose her something fun to do. My mom comes out of no where and starts yelling at me because she thought I was making her feel bad. It's really hard to get our explanation through her because she jumps to conclusion to fast. I feel like she is spoiling my sister with love and stuff.

I know very well that she is the youngest in the family and surprisely very patient, that's why people love her. She is not like my brother and I, we are not very goody goody like her. She can be the ideal little child although she is lacking things to make her a perfect. One thing that bother me is that she takes many things to granted and I understand that it's because is her age but seriously... She never receives any beatings from our parents like we did before. She never learns discipline like us before and when she doesn't call the person by a respectful name, my mom doesn't call her useless. I guess my mom expects way too much from us and she expects nothing from her because she sees her as an ideal child and the only baby that still haven't grow up yet.

I don't know what will happen to my little sister if I don't bother teaching her things and encouraging her to do things by talking to her. She will grow up into being a spoiled brat who knows nothing about life. She has things easy for her and we have it hard.

One thing I notice is that us three kids are very different from each other when it comes to life lol...

I was 10 min late to my new college today. I went to my first class 'Knowledge in the ancient times' and the teacher wasn't there. We(students) waited for half an hour and we left after that. I told my friend that we're leaving and he asked me : Are we doing something wrong? I answered back : Oh course not!! She or he didn't show up for half an hour already! He agreed with me so we went to the student service center to ask for our locker.

I had an hour break so I didn't do much except walking around and talking to my friends.

The second class was fundamental business. The teacher was there and he was explaining how the class is going to work for the next three months. I knew someone there but I never talked to him before so I took the chance to talk with him. After our nice little conversation, we decided to be partner for our oral presentation in December. LOL... Now we have to find a partner for our assignement. Then the class ended like 30 min earlier, I found another group of friends and I started hanging out with them.

An hour and a half before my third class starts, I went to see another friend who was waiting in line to buy the books and I stayed with him because I want to buy books too. It takes around ten minutes to go in. I spent 134.41$ on four books, the most expensive is my introduction to political science which is around 80$. Man... It was a new edition too!! I have to get the new one because they add four new chapters. I have three more books to buy and they are going to be the most expensive ones. I'm going to ask my friends who are in commerce 1 and 2 last year to lend me theirs so that way,I'm going to save around 365$... Or they can sell me for cheaper XD!!

The third class, the teacher wanted to start the program right away and it was so tedious. Man... I almost felt asleep but I tried concentrating...

After the third ended, I went to the fourth class and I didn't like the teacher very much. He was nice but he talks really fast and he has a typical indian accent which make it hard for me to understand. I'm going to try to attend his two other classes. If I don't understand a thing, I think I'm going to drop this course for this semester or switch to another one.

*sigh* So yeah... This is my first day. Although, four classes in a monday is pretty hectic for me especially when I finish at 11 pm on Sunday. Well... I think I'm going to bring a cup of coffee or something to keep me awake at 8 in the morning lol... The first day of school was fun. Teachers are very nice too =P.

I returned a pair of jeans two days ago and I got 43.33$ back in my credit card. I need to return the sweater so I have enough to repay back my credit card. I feel bad that I went out of control. Next time, I'm going to bring in cash and leave my credit card and my bank card at home.

I gave 40$ to my brother that we earned selling the guitar that belong to him. A cheap kind anyways. I even split our 52$ that we earned from the garage sale last Saturday.

I don't bother redocorating the house because the amount is too little and my brother asked me to buy something to put the shoes in and a bookcase with that money. The thing is, he doesn't care if it's cheap and made of bad quality. So I was like... Whatever, we are not buying anything. I earned 26$ and that is going toward the challenge money.

Old amount: 3749$ + 26$
New amount: 3775$

The reason why I didn't bother buying those stuff is because we will toss it away like it's nothing or my brother will criticized it and he will find a way to replace it then he's going to ask me to split the money for something he bought. I'm through with everything he proposes! He never sticks to his proposition. All he can do is talk! Where's the action? Yeah maybe a little then he gives up. I have been supporting his decisions and everything but I have enought... I'm not going to believe him anymore.

There's also another reason why I'm piss at him. Is the message he passes to everyone in his hi5 profile.

"There's no such words that are valid to describe about myself, my personality, physical appearance and mind are always on progress, so its up to you to know me at the time that is givin to you.

generally, from my point of view.. im a very out going person, im an economist and an ecologist, i save money for my present/future needs and i recycle for the community so nothing goes to waste, im a pretty fast forwarded person and relationship is never a priority to me, what are considered a priority to me are: first of all.. my family(including my cousins), my goals, my friends(only those who have a solid respect for me "

Economist? Ecologist? He is far far far from being an economist. I tried helping him by suggesting him on ways to save. He said that it's not worth it or that he can't help wanting the things now. Alright, but don't be putting economist as part of you because you are an impulsive spender and you don't bother to fix it! All you do is whine whine whine but never bother to do anything about it. I suggested him that it takes patience, go to sites to read some saving techniques or anything. He doesn't bother to do it. Okay fine but he is not an economist! I told him : So yeah... You claim to be an economist... His reaction? Wahahahahahahahhahahahahahaha! Yet, he doesn't change his ways or change what he said.

He is not an ecologist either although he got the word wrong... He means environmentalist. I reminded him often to close the light, he said that he doesn't have the time to close all and make sure it's all close on his way out.He contributes to pollution by putting smoke outside to kill little insects, buying stuff then dumping it in the garbage and he liters.

As I can see, he claims to be someone he's not and he gets wow by people because his speech is really convincing. I was influence by him but I'm actually doing something. I admit that I sometime say and never do although if I really really want to do something or change it, I will do something not whine and hoping that it will go away soon. My brother said that he admires that I am a good saver.

I was a natural saver when I was little and he was a natural spender. I remember he stole money from me to buy junk from my cousin. He got so desperated at buying his things that he even stole money from my family. It has gotten out of control that my dad was trying to get back the money but my cousin said he don't have the money anymore. Sometimes, I wonder how much money my bro stole from me.

Oh yeah, I even remember the first time I got my bank account. I was so happy and curious.I knew right away how to use it by myself. I was exploring this wonderful machine and it feels good to put money in there. My parents were proud of me and they trusted me with the money. They even let me keep my bank account. My brother never put a cent into his account... Hahaha... It was funny. My account was growing and his was staying the same amount... I think around 900$. I had over a thousand already... Even near two thousand. Then my early teeenage years came along and I was spending the money like crazy. In less than three months, I was spending around a thousand dollar. It has cause me a lot of problems with my parents and I so they took my card away. I suggested them to give me a brand new account where I can do whatever I like with it. My dad agrees. Well since there's no amount in it, I have to start filling it up. When I turn 16, I started working after my trip to Vancouver. I was putting 50$ each payday in there and I made around 600$ in my saving account. When I quit my job, I didn't have anything to fall back on so I was using my savings for my personal need and I was trying to make it last while I was searching for a job. I was determine to save save save. When I got the job... Well the journey to the saving world starts.

Maybe I know why I really feel the need to save. My parents traumatized me so much by talking about money all the time when I was a teen. Man, it feels good when parents don't bother talking about money with you anymore. Although, my dad wants me to save but he wants me to buy everything by myself. Isn't that a little hypocrite of him? I told him I'm saving for something important like a trip. I already taken care of 90% of my needs and wants. Compare to my brother, it's like nothing.

UUm.. I just realised that I'm out of subject again like usual.. Sorry @.@... Well I guess I compare with my brother but really... I would not be pissed off at him if he was responsible. He is 20 going on 21 soon!!

I'm getting closer to the goal and I still haven't found a CD or anything for it. Well I'm still thinking what I'm going to do with it but London seems like a good choice. I'm always confused at where I'm going when it comes to travel XD. I want to go everywhere!!

Morocco will be my next destination next summer to visit a friend that I had promised to see her three years ago. She is very excited and me too but I have to talk with my dad first. About my friend, I knew her since we were in sixth grade and after a year here, she has to go back home because her dad found a job there. She visited twice here around three years ago and we made rendez-vous to see each others at a mall and the last one, I couldn't go because my dad was forcing me to stay to work at his place. This is also one of the reason why I resent my dad so much, I never saw my friend again and we rarely talk on msn. My dad tried to bring me back to work for him but I refused, even if he pays minimum now, I will never ever work at his place... Just looking at the way he treats my brother, I don't want to go back. Anyways, I'm the only one in Canada who still keeps in touch with her after all these years. All the others don't bother to talk to her again and it's kinda sad... I mean... She made a lot of good memories here in Canada with them and they don't care... Well, I'm going to keep in touch with her as long as possible and I'm going to see her next year no matter what.

I guess I found my next challenge... Saving up for Morocco next year. It wouldn't be so hard to save at least 2500$ in less than a year right? XD I gotta work hard then.

Oh by the way... XD My friend and I saved 4$ at the movie yesterday with my coupon XD !! yay! It became 5$ each. I still owe him another movie because he paid for the dinner. I think I'm falling in love with him... LOL... I kiss him on the cheek yesterday night. He is a very simple guy and he likes me for three years already. He used to be creepy, always staring at the girls he likes, now he is more normal like and more enjoyable to talk to. I hope we will get along in the future.

Old amount: 3745 + 4$ =
New amount: 3749$

251$ left to go... =)

It's hard to return a jeans that fit nicely... *sigh* I think I'm going to return one of the three pairs of jeans that I bought today. Man it's hard but I have no choice. There's always another pair of jeans that will fit 3 times better. T.T'

I think I ruin my August budget... I don't have any money left this month.

I count the change in my piggy bank and I have 20$ in there. I'm going to add it in my challenge money.

Old amount : 3725 + 20$ =
New amount : 3745$

Last friday, I went out shopping at the new outdoor mall to buy clothes. I was thinking of limiting myself to 100$ to buy jeans. I bought a nice pair of jeans that fit me quite well for around 38$. I was telling myself that I have around 62$ left to spend so I went to the H&M store to look at the clothes for fun... Then I saw a really nice grey sweater that look different in me in a good way so I thought to myself : Well why not buy it?! It cost me 29$ + tax. Then I went to American Eagle to look at the jeans then I saw a friend that work there and she helps me look at the jeans. I bought a pair for around 40$. I was like... Okay that's enought for now. I kinda reach my limit a little bit and I got two new pairs of jeans. Then I saw a Esprit store and I went to look there just for fun and I saw a nice sweater and a pair of jeans... I got a crazy idea to try it on and guess what? It looks great on me... So I bought the two things and I realized I exceed my limit by 205$!!*sigh* Man... I think I need to do a shopping spree at least two times a year to feel good about myself... @.@ Man oh man...

I did a garage sale last Saturday, my brother and I earned 92$ in total. On Sunday, my brother didn't bother waking up and his lame excuse is : I slept at 3 in the morning!! Stupid... He was chatting till 3 in the morning!! He never keeps his word in anything. Brother even said that we are taking our part of the money... What the hell... I thought we were going to redocorate our house or something... Whatever, I'm never going to trust my brother with his stupid commitming to something. He never keeps it. I'm going to separate the amount later tonight.

Anyways, I work on the weekend and the tips weren't really good... I got around 40$ and my friend lost around 3$ in the car and I spent 2$ on food. I have 5$ to put in my challenge money.

Old amount: 3720$ + 5$ =
New amount: 3725$

I have to keep myself from spending or I'm going to be a full time spender!! >.

I'm adding 40$ that comes from my clothes budget. I went shopping and I spent 15.95$ on two shirts!! And I went shopping with my cousin last Tuesday for a t-shirt that I'm wearing today... Organic t-shirt for 22.67$ XD Haha... It's funny. I spent 38.62$ for clothes this month and I borrowed the money in my credit card. I paid the amount back in my bank today so I'm going to subtract it on my clothes allowance by rounding it up to 40$.

Old amount : 3680$ + 40$ =
New amount : 3720$

Man!! Amber is getting closer to the 4 000$ mark!! Noooo!!

Today, I felt like a reject. I think I am having problem with loneliness that has to do with my past as a child. *sigh* Just looking at my cousins, they all have great friends while I have the ones who will come and go in my life. I guess nothing really last forever or for a long time. Yesterday, the French guy went online and I was shocked that he went on... He wants to talk to me I guess. Well we chatted, he asked me to introduce him to my cousins and friends... lol... Well I guess he is in need of someone to hug at night. Well, all the beautiful girls I know are taken haha...
Anyways, I still won't call him because I don't want to get involve into anything with him.


So yeah... About my challenge money... I got my paycheck today and I have 273$ to add.

Old amount: 3407$ + 273$ =
New amount: 3680$

320$ to go!!

I found a 1$ coin on the floor in front of my college... HEHE!! I'm going to add it in my challenge money.

Old amount : 3406 $ + 1$ =
New amount : 3407$


By the way, the guy that I just met not long ago. Well, I called him yesterday to tell him that I just want to be friends with him and he said that it's okay. After I told him this, I asked him if he wants to come eat with my cousin near where he lives. He said that he was not sure if he can make it because he has an interview for his job and stuff. I told him to give me a call if he can make it which I doubt he can make it. Anyways, so yeah... After yesterday phone call, I'm not planning to call him anymore. I don't think it's a good idea to get in contact with him anymore even though we're friends. We might see each others at my dad's grocery store or somewhere in Montreal I don't care.

I called the guy whom I met two weeks ago... You know the guy that I kinda felt in love at first sight... Well I got his number instead of his email and I talked to him last Saturday and... Well he is 34 years old. 16 years my senior!!! OMG... I was in shocked lol. I still talked to him to after that and I accidently seduced him with my bubbly personality... I am chatty when I feel comfortable. So yeah... He was really interested in me and I said that we could be friends but more than that... I don't know. He tried to convince me that it could be possible and that he is quite fit for his age. Damn right he is fit!

Anyways, I called him yesterday around 10 pm to tell him that I want to be friends and that is all but he didn't answer the phone. I just called once last night and I didn't call again today. I'm waiting for him to call back but if he doesn't call back then I can say that we are not friends. That will be a relieved in some ways... Damn... I felt in love with a guy who is like twice my age. .________." Although his accent is cute... haha

#1 : I'm going to add 220$ left that I have in the bank after separating the money in my budget.

Old amount : 3186$ + 220$ =
New amount : 3406$

I'm waiting for my next paycheck next Thursday Hehe... Since I earned more money this month by working extra hours... I might achieve the 4K. I'm pretty sure Amber will beat me by now but it's fun to competed XD!!

#2 : My brother decided to make a garage sale next week. We have many things to sale and we are thinking of putting the money we earned to redecorated our house. Well... I would like to put the money into our Christmas tree. My brother and I always wanted a real nice Christmas tree but parents never bother to buy one or they buy the cheap kind that will break easily.

#3 :I have to work out. I'm feeling tired these days so I think I need to exercise to feel better.

#4 : See rush hours 3 next Thursday with friends. I've been looking forward all summer now!! XD

#5 : See my financial advisor.

I decided that I will help out my dad's grocery after my class at 4pm to 7pm. At the same time, earn money to get my 4K goal this month if I can. I don't bother waiting for the guy anymore... But I kept my words that I'm going to be at the grocery store more often this month. So it's his call. I'm not going to be madly in love with him. It's breaking my concentration from my precalculus class and I hardly know him anyways.

I started my pre-calculus class yesterday that will last for two weeks.

It's weird to switch from French to English all of a sudden but I'm looking forward to a new school year in a English school. The class was okay. I did a little test yesterday and I got 45%... Eum... Good thing it doesn't count.

Overall the class was easy. It was math from last year so it was a little bit like a review. I would like the class better if it was a morning class instead of an afternoon class. That way, I can have a whole afternoon off.

Anyways... I went to my dad grocery hoping to see the guy again. The cashier said he came here two times already but it was the days that I wasn't there. I hope he doesn't give up on me. T.T I would like to know him more. Maybe I should leave my email for him but I like it better to give him in person. That way, nobody at my dad's place will get too suspecious.

God... Today was so creepy. Two hours before the end of my shift, there was two big guys who were sitting at a table and they were looking at us like they wanted to kill us. They sat there for an hour and we got really creep out. At 10 pm, they went out and I saw their truck making a turn and they were in front of Tim Hortons. I got so creep out that I called my dad to pick me up at 11pm. Then the truck left. I think I scared them by calling on the Tim Hortons phone... After that accident, I was so traumatized. My dad suggests me to get another job because the job that I have now is too late. I work 3 to 11 pm. I think so too... I just need to make a good reputation with my current boss first before searching for another job. I need to find a job that I can leave early.

This week, I worked five days so I got 85$ as tips to put in my challenge money.

Old amount : 3101$ + 85$ =
New amount : 3186$

Amber... Watch out!! =P

It's kinda strange but I felt in love with a stranger...

On monday...

I was bagging food at my dad's grocery store, the cashier noticed the tatoo in the guy right arm in Chinese. She asked what does it mean in English and he said : Enjoy... He forgot how to say it and my aunt told me what it means in Cantonese and I told him in french that it means : Enjoy the day today not the future... Something like that... He said : yeah something like that. Then I was asking if it's a real one and he said yeah it's real. We talked for a little while then I noticed his accent... It sounds so French so I asked him if he was French. He said yes. After that, I started talking with him and I stopped bagging groceries. I looked into his eyes and I could see his eye balls widen and mine too... I was feeling so weird all of a sudden like he totally seduced me with his eyes. I never felt anything like this before... I kept looking into his eyes and i didn't understand this feeling... I felt like getting close to him. I could hear his voice soften... I couldn't stand this feeling but I don't hate it either... Man am I feeling in love with him???!!

Anyways... Then I have to go with my dad to go see something around 7 pm so I said bye to him. I gave him clue that I will be at my dad's grocery store more often this month and he said : ok, I'll go see you often. OMG... After this accident, I want to see him again. All I know from him is that he came to Montreal from France three months ago to work as a computer achitecture and his name is Eric. OMG... I'm in love. I hope he feels the same too... But how does he make me fall in love with him just by looking at me like that? Man... If the cashier didn't ask him about the tatoo, this wouldn't happen.

just to let you guys know... I'm not cheating on my boyfriend... I broke up with him around a week ago because it wasn't working between us. I thought I would be alone for awhile but then, this happend!!