Today, my friend wanted me to dress well with heels and tye my hair up. I look pretty nice but I don't have the confidence to do it because I will get attention from people, I wanted attention a long time ago since I was a kid, although, I don't know why when I dress normal, I wanted attention but when it comes to the other way around, I don't want any. Sometimes, too much is too much... I dunno. I guess I lack confidence with how I dress.

*sigh*... I'm such a confusing person. I felt like I have three personalities stuck in my body and I want the mature one to get out. The one where she is a little modest and simple. The two others are the one who lack confident in all and the other one who is overconfident. I hate myself most of the time. ._."

So yeah... I have to work in my confidence by dressing more nicely. I don't want to sound arrogant or anything but... By looking at the mirror,I do have a good body. ._." I don't dress revealing though. So yeah, I should embrace my form while I can. I'm only 18 and things started to change so quickly... @.@"

By the way, today I spent 10$. ^.^'. By repaying back my bro's 5$ and I gave 5$ to a friend so he can buy his lunch because he forgot to bring his and he finishes his courses at 4pm. I have never felt this generous. I don't spend on myself lately which I'm fine with that.