You can't have everything you want Christina.

I think it's time to be more realistic. I'm becoming the person whom I hate the most. A spender!! I spend on things because at home there's nothing to eat, not even leftovers.

My parents are always working so their only solution for us is to buy food with our weekly allowance at the cafeteria. I tried eating at home as often as I can but there's only pasta and instant noodles. My mom stock up on instant noodles and that is really disturbing that she is encouraging us to eat unhealthy.

I can't have a family who buy us good healthy food. They don't know the difference between eating healthy and unhealthy. All they see is food. No wonder their health is declining. I wish I could help but I'm in the middle of the end of my term so I have many essays to write in two weeks. Even if I help, my parents will not learn from me, they will rely on me to keep the family healthy which make me feel more stressful.

Another thing is that I am stress about my challenge. I know I have around two months to achieve the christmas fun but I'm not working much anymre. How can it be possible to achieve all? I need to come up with a lower amount of christmas money. I know I can't give present to everyone though because I have plan it pretty late already. Even though if I take my hours back, it won't do me any good because I will still feel like I'm not making much. So yeah, I'm reducing my christmas fund to 300$.