So far, I've been doing pretty good by not going shopping for awhile.

I've brought my lunch to school and when I have classes in the afternoon, I eat at home. Also, my friend Kiwii doesn't make me spend anymore so it's all good.

I've been experiencing strange things about my dad again. He seems to know that I save a lot of money in the bank because I left my bank statement open in the table sometimes and now he is forcing me to spend my money on some stupid stuff again. I am losing my trust in this blog because this site is log in my dad's laptop. What I am afraid of is that he will make it worst if he start to see this blog. Plus, another reason is that I'm not into blogging anymore. I just read the forums sometimes and the daily news posted.

So yeah... I'll come back by another name someday. Hopefully, my goal will be more longterm than shorterm and I will have a lot more to say about what I do in my life.

Well I only work for my dad right now and I don't have any incomes anymore because I decided to accumulate my hours at my dad's place by working there and take my pay before my trip to Morocco.

I've been having problems with my own money and it's mostly because of the people I hang out with who influence me to spend. My dad isn't helping me either, some days he just randomly dumps some things that I need to pay for my own. Anyways, I really don't know what the heck he is thinking and it is frustrating us that he just randomly tells us to pay this and that.

Basically, I'm trying to stand up for myself now as I realized Kiwii have been influencing me to do things that I don't want to do which involves spending my money. Anyways, I will stand up for myself and not feel bad when I hurt her feelings. I can't make everyone happy!

From now on, I'm going to follow my plan B by not working that much and to concentrate on my studies. Studying have become a lot easier because I am more stress free and I don't need to work that much anymore.

As for my money challenge, I'm going to save my money first on my Morocco and my other trips with my dad in the summer. When I come back, I'm going to concentrate on my Japan trip. I realized that in order to do this, I should be here more often. I will try to update it as often as I can.

My allowance will be 200$/month with my dad.

Here what I need to pay for each month:

Bus pass: 42$
Phone bill: 51$(I'm trying to lower it)
Beauty: 20$
Emergency: 52$

Left to save: 35$

As for going out and all sort of things... I don't know yet. I have to track my expense.

It is quite hard to live a simple life when everyone around you are into the spending life.

I have found a guy that is simple and I love him. On February 14th, it will be our first month together and he asked me what I want to do that day. I told him that I will just visit him in his school and after school, we can go do our homework together and talk. I don't want to go eat dinner or anything because there's too much crowd and I don't feel like spending any money anymore.

Sometimes, I just wish I have someone who can propose me simple activities instead of me. My friend Kiwii is starting to save a portion of her pay for our Japan trip in 2011 but I know she still doesn't know the difference between wants and needs. She gave me a Winnie the pooh cell strap with my zodiac sign. You know those cell strap from the 2$ machine. She spent 60$ in there just to get her boyfriend his zodiac sign and he didn't like it in the end because it was too girly.

Anyways, I will try to update this as much as I can. I have finally made a budget and I will update it later on tonight.

I've been on vacation for two weeks already starting today.

For my first week of vacation, I was working at my dad's place for 8 days. I had a christmas party with a bunch of friends and I went to Toronto for two days where I came back yesterday. Today, I took a day off so I could relax and bum around a little.

The worst thing about having a dad as your boss is that he lives with you. It means that he will force me to work everyday. I remember on Christmas eve, he asked me where is my cousin who was just here a few min ago. I said he is bringing food for grandma. My dad asked me to tell him to work and I said that he doesn't feel like working today. He got pissed and he threathned him to not let him eat lunch. Sure my dad is under pressure but since I was a kid, he doesn't understand that using threat will not make us work for him. It's annoying and very selfish of him. After many accidents similar to this,I really don't feel like working for him when school ends. I thought things will be better now but I just figure out that working with family will bring in more drama. I don't care if my dad doesn't want me to find another. It's my choice.

I should find a job this summer but, I want to travel. mmmm... At the same time, I have to commit to my new job. Anyways, I plan to work for my dad till my aunt comes back from her operation somewhere in March. I'm going to concentrate on my second semester by having little to no work because I'm planning to try to take 8 courses after the holiday.

About my challenge, I'm going to put more money in next week because that's where I get my paycheck.

Why am I crying for? There's nothing to cry for. I may not have friends whom I can trust very much but I have a goal in my life that I would very much like to achieve.

Why should I critisize others when I should concentrate on my own life? I haven't reach my goals yet. I have not achieve my level of potential yet. Why should I critisize when I should look at myself first.

Why should I be more concern for their life than mine? I have better things to do.

Why should I lose my faith in myself? I am still young and I have a lot to learn.

From this day on, no more crying, no more hating on myself, no more fear of the unknown... I need to wake up and see the light again!

My brother is so unreasonable especially with money. I bet that 5 years from now, he still won't be saving any money except his 50 cents a day where he plans to buy something expensive when he accumulates a lot and he is almost 21 years old.

I still remember that he said that parents are suppose to pay for everything for the kids in order for them to succeed. Eum... Excuse me? Dad pays for our education and gives us 50$ a week. What did he not pay for us in order for us to succeed? He pays for our education and that is the most important thing.

Today, I asked him if he has save for the New York trip yet. He said no. Disappointed. He has around a month to save yet he did nothing. His excuse? "I don't have any money because I have to buy lunch, buy books, buy a bus pass and pay my phone bill! How do you want me to save?" So basically, he is expecting me to help him save money by making him lunch and help him by force. Well no. I just give him advices and he won't take it.

Another thing that is bothering me is that he doesn't do anything to face his problems like my dad owes my brother his last paycheck that he works a few weeks ago. My dad refuses to write him a paycheck so my brother doesn't want to work at my dad's place anymore. If I was my brother, I would have gone to the grocery store and demand my dad to write my paycheck. About the paycheck part, it's a long story! Well basically, my brother always feel hopeless in bad situations. My dad and brother have something in common, they don't know what to do in bad situations and they whine about it like it's not their fault or that the person should've done something. I wish they will grow up for once and face reality! *furious*

Today at supper, I said to a friend that he is mean for replying back to his customers when they called him : Hey kid. Kiwii said I'm meaner. Haha! I guess it's true. I'm quite direct but that's my way of being true to my friends.

I said what I think so I don't feel the need to hide what I think. I guess it's from my past experiences. Although, it has wrecked my friendship with some people in the past or they are afraid to tell me things without me judging them. I don't call them idiot or anything, I just tell them straight away what I think whether they like it or not.

Now you know a little more about Christina XD.

Hey everybody! My friend joined this blog yesterday and I would like you all to meet her on http://k1w11.savingadvice.com/ ! She is nineteen soon and she too is trying to find a way to save her money for a trip but in Beijing.

By the way, it's the girl that I talk about a few days ago about her spending habit.

Let's give her a warm welcome to her when she post her first entry in the next days to come!

I met my dad's advisor yesterday for my RRSP. My dad didn't give me a clear explanation about what he's planning to do with it. He told me that it will help me save on taxes.

When I first met my dad's advisor,he was really nice with me. From the beginning till the end,I kept my distance from him because I have established a good relationship with my current one for a year already. He asked me which school I go to and which program and surprisely, it was the same school that he went to. He also asked me which field I'll go to. I replied back in a calm voice : Finance. His reaction was priceless. He stopped smilling for a moment.

During our little conversation, he didn't give me a broad explanation on what he will do and such, he just randomly put high risk for me. I sense that he had talked this over with my dad. Another thing weird about him is that I could sense he lacks confidence. Maybe because it's the fact that I'm his future competitor and I won't get tricked that easily. Maybe...

After our little conversation with his advisor, my dad knows what I want to do. I think he understands me more and he would have no choice but to explain to me or advoid my questions at all cost. Like this morning, I asked him what he wants to do with my RRSP. He said that it's for my tax. I asked him why he puts his money in then and he said that he will take care of it so I shouldn't worry. Why shouldn't I be worry when it's under my name? I have the right to know what he is doing in my account because it is also my future that he is messing with. *sigh* I can't wait to study Finance more deeply so I can take care of my account.

I'm sick and tired of people hiding me things that concern me. I will not let my dad's advisor nor he mess around with my account. My dad knows that one day, I will be better than him in money. Somehow, I felt like my dad's feel threaten in some ways. He is relucted in answering my questions.

Last saturday, a coworker told me that there was a car accident that occur in our town. A couple had an accident and to my surprise, it was two classmates of mine in high school last year. The guy whom I know since elementary school is in coma at this moment and the girl lost half of her left leg. Today, she will find out that she lost a part of her leg and her boyfriend has a high chance of dying.

I heard so many rumors. It was hard to know which one is true but still... It makes me think of life and how we take it for granted sometimes. Even though I don't know the couple well, I isolated myself a little bit and I couldn't concentrate in class today. I think I did badly in my math test. I was tired and sad to study an hour before the test like I had planned today but I didn't understand how it could affect me so much. I shouldn't care that much, right? I don't know them well... *Sigh*

Looking back in my life right now, which is not a lot for my age, I have been bless with many things. I know what I want and I'm not afraid to speak out what I believe in. I'm quite surprise that I have save myself from getting into debt later in my life and I am slowly achieving my dream of traveling. I have parents who provide me with everything that I need.

I'm also glad to meet friends who are specials in their own ways and they have made me who I am today. Unlike many free spirit teenages that I see today, I have learn many things that are important in my life. As a consequence, I don't get along well with many of my peers because they are not into deep conversations. I don't hold much regrets but I do feel left out in many things that young people do such as partying, going to club,etc on weekends. I'm sure that I'll get into that sooner or later because I just got legal this year lol...

Well hopefully, you guys will see me change over the years. I have kept this blog for a year already. I'm quite worry about what I'll become in the future but one thing for sure, if I still have my good concious with me, I might go far.

I hope to be here for as long as this site is open though.

Today, my friend wanted me to dress well with heels and tye my hair up. I look pretty nice but I don't have the confidence to do it because I will get attention from people, I wanted attention a long time ago since I was a kid, although, I don't know why when I dress normal, I wanted attention but when it comes to the other way around, I don't want any. Sometimes, too much is too much... I dunno. I guess I lack confidence with how I dress.

*sigh*... I'm such a confusing person. I felt like I have three personalities stuck in my body and I want the mature one to get out. The one where she is a little modest and simple. The two others are the one who lack confident in all and the other one who is overconfident. I hate myself most of the time. ._."

So yeah... I have to work in my confidence by dressing more nicely. I don't want to sound arrogant or anything but... By looking at the mirror,I do have a good body. ._." I don't dress revealing though. So yeah, I should embrace my form while I can. I'm only 18 and things started to change so quickly... @.@"

By the way, today I spent 10$. ^.^'. By repaying back my bro's 5$ and I gave 5$ to a friend so he can buy his lunch because he forgot to bring his and he finishes his courses at 4pm. I have never felt this generous. I don't spend on myself lately which I'm fine with that.

Yesterday night, my brother complained about the cellphone bill that he has to pay with his money which is around 300$ to 400$ next week and he can't figure out a way to pay it.

He was saying that dad is getting crazier and he doesn't want to pay the bill for him. I told him that he wants you to start paying some things for himself, then he said that a parent have to pay these things. Judging by the amount of the bill, it was a lot but that was because he recently bought a brand new cellphone with mps and camera in it. It cost around 150$ with a contract then he decided that he wants a black one(another 150$ spend) so he orders something to unlock it which cost 100$. The first cellphone, he sold it to someone for 300$. Okay yeah, he haven't even pay both cellphones, the unlock number and the contract which he has to pay per month. In total it will cost around 400 and up. I wonder where he put that 300$ that he made off selling to someone. I think he put it in his saving account where dad told him not to take it out but save it.

In general, I don't think he even put a penny aside for the cellphone bill and he was expecting my dad to bail him out if he doesn't pay the bill. Well... I hope dad doesn't give in. He even borrow my sister's money without asking to unlock his cellphone and to buy books (Which is around 150$). He even dip some in my dad's tax return money in his bank. All the money he borrowed, he was expecting to repay it in his next paycheck at my dad's work but the problem is... He doesn't want to work. I wouldn't be surprise if he starts taking money out in his saving account which now, he said he will not touch it because he wants to earn interest.

Other than the phone bill conversation we had, I tried telling him that he should start payig things for himself and he shouldn't expect dad to pay everything and I mean everything for him. My brother told me that the most successful people are the ones who never have debts and never work, their parents pay everything for them because they want him to study. Well in my brother's case, even if he has time to study, he will be going online to chat, listening to music and rent movies to watch.

I wonder if my brother is on the road of getting himself into debt...

I look at my first budget again and I think it doesn't make sense anymore. I'm going to college and I don't need a budget for every categories because well... I don't need them. I have all the things I need and I could save more. I just have a problem with spending my money on clothes and food. Everything else is provided for me.

The reason why I feel like a spoiled brat is because my dad said he'll pay everything that relates to school and he'll give my brother and me 50$ per week to pay for everything like bus pass, phone bill, lunch,etc. because we're making our own money, mostly me. The reason he decides that is that he asks us to pay for everything for ourself because he assumes we make a lot of money.I told him that he got mad at us before because we are not saving our money and he wants us to save so badly but now, he is trying to make us spend our money. I told him to stop throwing us things that we need to pay for because he wants us to manage our money but his ways of making us learn is well... Not really well done. It sounds hypocrite from him to tell us to save our money and then tell us to spend it.

So yeah... I felt guilty when he decided (by himself) that he will give us money for everything that we want. My brother agrees and he said it's an okay amount and I think it's a lot...

I am so confused... One thing for sure, I want to save my 50$ allowance, I'm going to save my paycheck and I'm going to set a limit amount per two seasons on clothes (buying classic and good quality that will last me a long time). I can't help feeling selfish... And my brother feels no guilt because he is used to parents giving him things since he doesn't work outside of the family and I'm sure he will spend the allowance on stupid things. He is already digging money in his bank account.

My little sister lost my dad's camera that cost 1000$ last March, she almost lost my camera that cost 500$ a few weeks ago and she lost her nintendo DS + her games today.

I didn't care because well... It doesn't belong to me although I was pretty disappointed at my sister for forgetting things again. My brother was furious. He was saying that she is irresponsible. LOL... It's sort of hypocrite of him to say that because he is one himself and he told his friends that she lost things that belong to him. He told me that its to make things easier for his friends to understand and I know very well that it's to make a show that he is a really good brother. Like I said, he is all talk but no action so I was mocking him a little bit.

My brother wanted her to learn the value of money so he told me to make her work to repay back that amount. I was like okay... That what I suggested awhile ago. I gave him the idea to take her savings because that where it hurts the most. I took out the saving box that she has been putting the money in since last year and she has 191$. My sister saw that and she didn't say a thing. I said : ';Well... He's taking the money because you lost something expensive.' I was talking to my sister calmly about why she shouldn't take things for granted and that our parents work hard for the money. Then my mom came along and she said : What the heck are you yelling her for? I said that I didn't yell at her and that I was telling her calmly about the money she lost. My mom wasn't even listening to me and we argue a little bit. She said that I'm hurting her and that's enought. To be honest, our arguments lead to no where because she constantly changes the main subject so I asked her if she knows what I'm talking about. She said : Yes but you don't need to repeat it. I said : No, I'm not going to repeat it, I want you to tell me what I just said to her. She said : .... You were talking about money! I was like yeah but can you tell me precisely what I was telling her? She then said that she doesn't need me to repeat it. I ask her many many times the question and after five minutes I give up. I was like : Okay, whatever! No wonder daddy can't get through you without making himself look crazy.

To be honest, I got the impression that my mom feels like my sister got bullied by us. I can't say much about my brother not bullying my sister but he is pretty aggressive with her. I'm not aggressive with her, when I know that I hurt my sister, I comfort her by telling her the reason that I got mad and that next time, she should be careful and I always propose her something fun to do. My mom comes out of no where and starts yelling at me because she thought I was making her feel bad. It's really hard to get our explanation through her because she jumps to conclusion to fast. I feel like she is spoiling my sister with love and stuff.

I know very well that she is the youngest in the family and surprisely very patient, that's why people love her. She is not like my brother and I, we are not very goody goody like her. She can be the ideal little child although she is lacking things to make her a perfect. One thing that bother me is that she takes many things to granted and I understand that it's because is her age but seriously... She never receives any beatings from our parents like we did before. She never learns discipline like us before and when she doesn't call the person by a respectful name, my mom doesn't call her useless. I guess my mom expects way too much from us and she expects nothing from her because she sees her as an ideal child and the only baby that still haven't grow up yet.

I don't know what will happen to my little sister if I don't bother teaching her things and encouraging her to do things by talking to her. She will grow up into being a spoiled brat who knows nothing about life. She has things easy for her and we have it hard.

One thing I notice is that us three kids are very different from each other when it comes to life lol...

I gave 40$ to my brother that we earned selling the guitar that belong to him. A cheap kind anyways. I even split our 52$ that we earned from the garage sale last Saturday.

I don't bother redocorating the house because the amount is too little and my brother asked me to buy something to put the shoes in and a bookcase with that money. The thing is, he doesn't care if it's cheap and made of bad quality. So I was like... Whatever, we are not buying anything. I earned 26$ and that is going toward the challenge money.

Old amount: 3749$ + 26$
New amount: 3775$

The reason why I didn't bother buying those stuff is because we will toss it away like it's nothing or my brother will criticized it and he will find a way to replace it then he's going to ask me to split the money for something he bought. I'm through with everything he proposes! He never sticks to his proposition. All he can do is talk! Where's the action? Yeah maybe a little then he gives up. I have been supporting his decisions and everything but I have enought... I'm not going to believe him anymore.

There's also another reason why I'm piss at him. Is the message he passes to everyone in his hi5 profile.

"There's no such words that are valid to describe about myself, my personality, physical appearance and mind are always on progress, so its up to you to know me at the time that is givin to you.

generally, from my point of view.. im a very out going person, im an economist and an ecologist, i save money for my present/future needs and i recycle for the community so nothing goes to waste, im a pretty fast forwarded person and relationship is never a priority to me, what are considered a priority to me are: first of all.. my family(including my cousins), my goals, my friends(only those who have a solid respect for me "

Economist? Ecologist? He is far far far from being an economist. I tried helping him by suggesting him on ways to save. He said that it's not worth it or that he can't help wanting the things now. Alright, but don't be putting economist as part of you because you are an impulsive spender and you don't bother to fix it! All you do is whine whine whine but never bother to do anything about it. I suggested him that it takes patience, go to sites to read some saving techniques or anything. He doesn't bother to do it. Okay fine but he is not an economist! I told him : So yeah... You claim to be an economist... His reaction? Wahahahahahahahhahahahahahaha! Yet, he doesn't change his ways or change what he said.

He is not an ecologist either although he got the word wrong... He means environmentalist. I reminded him often to close the light, he said that he doesn't have the time to close all and make sure it's all close on his way out.He contributes to pollution by putting smoke outside to kill little insects, buying stuff then dumping it in the garbage and he liters.

As I can see, he claims to be someone he's not and he gets wow by people because his speech is really convincing. I was influence by him but I'm actually doing something. I admit that I sometime say and never do although if I really really want to do something or change it, I will do something not whine and hoping that it will go away soon. My brother said that he admires that I am a good saver.

I was a natural saver when I was little and he was a natural spender. I remember he stole money from me to buy junk from my cousin. He got so desperated at buying his things that he even stole money from my family. It has gotten out of control that my dad was trying to get back the money but my cousin said he don't have the money anymore. Sometimes, I wonder how much money my bro stole from me.

Oh yeah, I even remember the first time I got my bank account. I was so happy and curious.I knew right away how to use it by myself. I was exploring this wonderful machine and it feels good to put money in there. My parents were proud of me and they trusted me with the money. They even let me keep my bank account. My brother never put a cent into his account... Hahaha... It was funny. My account was growing and his was staying the same amount... I think around 900$. I had over a thousand already... Even near two thousand. Then my early teeenage years came along and I was spending the money like crazy. In less than three months, I was spending around a thousand dollar. It has cause me a lot of problems with my parents and I so they took my card away. I suggested them to give me a brand new account where I can do whatever I like with it. My dad agrees. Well since there's no amount in it, I have to start filling it up. When I turn 16, I started working after my trip to Vancouver. I was putting 50$ each payday in there and I made around 600$ in my saving account. When I quit my job, I didn't have anything to fall back on so I was using my savings for my personal need and I was trying to make it last while I was searching for a job. I was determine to save save save. When I got the job... Well the journey to the saving world starts.

Maybe I know why I really feel the need to save. My parents traumatized me so much by talking about money all the time when I was a teen. Man, it feels good when parents don't bother talking about money with you anymore. Although, my dad wants me to save but he wants me to buy everything by myself. Isn't that a little hypocrite of him? I told him I'm saving for something important like a trip. I already taken care of 90% of my needs and wants. Compare to my brother, it's like nothing.

UUm.. I just realised that I'm out of subject again like usual.. Sorry @.@... Well I guess I compare with my brother but really... I would not be pissed off at him if he was responsible. He is 20 going on 21 soon!!

Today, I felt like a reject. I think I am having problem with loneliness that has to do with my past as a child. *sigh* Just looking at my cousins, they all have great friends while I have the ones who will come and go in my life. I guess nothing really last forever or for a long time. Yesterday, the French guy went online and I was shocked that he went on... He wants to talk to me I guess. Well we chatted, he asked me to introduce him to my cousins and friends... lol... Well I guess he is in need of someone to hug at night. Well, all the beautiful girls I know are taken haha...
Anyways, I still won't call him because I don't want to get involve into anything with him.


So yeah... About my challenge money... I got my paycheck today and I have 273$ to add.

Old amount: 3407$ + 273$ =
New amount: 3680$

320$ to go!!

I found a 1$ coin on the floor in front of my college... HEHE!! I'm going to add it in my challenge money.

Old amount : 3406 $ + 1$ =
New amount : 3407$


By the way, the guy that I just met not long ago. Well, I called him yesterday to tell him that I just want to be friends with him and he said that it's okay. After I told him this, I asked him if he wants to come eat with my cousin near where he lives. He said that he was not sure if he can make it because he has an interview for his job and stuff. I told him to give me a call if he can make it which I doubt he can make it. Anyways, so yeah... After yesterday phone call, I'm not planning to call him anymore. I don't think it's a good idea to get in contact with him anymore even though we're friends. We might see each others at my dad's grocery store or somewhere in Montreal I don't care.

I called the guy whom I met two weeks ago... You know the guy that I kinda felt in love at first sight... Well I got his number instead of his email and I talked to him last Saturday and... Well he is 34 years old. 16 years my senior!!! OMG... I was in shocked lol. I still talked to him to after that and I accidently seduced him with my bubbly personality... I am chatty when I feel comfortable. So yeah... He was really interested in me and I said that we could be friends but more than that... I don't know. He tried to convince me that it could be possible and that he is quite fit for his age. Damn right he is fit!

Anyways, I called him yesterday around 10 pm to tell him that I want to be friends and that is all but he didn't answer the phone. I just called once last night and I didn't call again today. I'm waiting for him to call back but if he doesn't call back then I can say that we are not friends. That will be a relieved in some ways... Damn... I felt in love with a guy who is like twice my age. .________." Although his accent is cute... haha

I started my pre-calculus class yesterday that will last for two weeks.

It's weird to switch from French to English all of a sudden but I'm looking forward to a new school year in a English school. The class was okay. I did a little test yesterday and I got 45%... Eum... Good thing it doesn't count.

Overall the class was easy. It was math from last year so it was a little bit like a review. I would like the class better if it was a morning class instead of an afternoon class. That way, I can have a whole afternoon off.

Anyways... I went to my dad grocery hoping to see the guy again. The cashier said he came here two times already but it was the days that I wasn't there. I hope he doesn't give up on me. T.T I would like to know him more. Maybe I should leave my email for him but I like it better to give him in person. That way, nobody at my dad's place will get too suspecious.

It's kinda strange but I felt in love with a stranger...

On monday...

I was bagging food at my dad's grocery store, the cashier noticed the tatoo in the guy right arm in Chinese. She asked what does it mean in English and he said : Enjoy... He forgot how to say it and my aunt told me what it means in Cantonese and I told him in french that it means : Enjoy the day today not the future... Something like that... He said : yeah something like that. Then I was asking if it's a real one and he said yeah it's real. We talked for a little while then I noticed his accent... It sounds so French so I asked him if he was French. He said yes. After that, I started talking with him and I stopped bagging groceries. I looked into his eyes and I could see his eye balls widen and mine too... I was feeling so weird all of a sudden like he totally seduced me with his eyes. I never felt anything like this before... I kept looking into his eyes and i didn't understand this feeling... I felt like getting close to him. I could hear his voice soften... I couldn't stand this feeling but I don't hate it either... Man am I feeling in love with him???!!

Anyways... Then I have to go with my dad to go see something around 7 pm so I said bye to him. I gave him clue that I will be at my dad's grocery store more often this month and he said : ok, I'll go see you often. OMG... After this accident, I want to see him again. All I know from him is that he came to Montreal from France three months ago to work as a computer achitecture and his name is Eric. OMG... I'm in love. I hope he feels the same too... But how does he make me fall in love with him just by looking at me like that? Man... If the cashier didn't ask him about the tatoo, this wouldn't happen.

just to let you guys know... I'm not cheating on my boyfriend... I broke up with him around a week ago because it wasn't working between us. I thought I would be alone for awhile but then, this happend!!

After two years of not cutting my hair, I finally cut it today. I went to the salon and I ask the same guy who did my hair for my prom to cut it and curl it permanently. It came out cool and I look younger too. I waste 133$ including tips. Well... I didn't even do anything to my hair until now and I spend a lot on beauty product these days but I'm keeping it on track with my budget.

Anyways I'm going to add my tip money on my work day. I earned 54$ this weekend. So I'm going to add 24$ on my challenge money.

New amount : 2493$

I'm going to start on my budget test this month to see if it will work. So far, I bought a card for 62$ because I'm going to go out often. I used 4$ from my budget to take the bus so I'm left with 4$ in my transportation account. As for my first allowance this month, I already used 3$ for donation yesterday because I saw an old Chinese lady on the street and she looks so pitiful... I don't know if it was an act or it was real but it broke my heart to see her like that so I gave all my change and my cousin gave all her change too. We gave in total 6$. Man, I was wondering if she was doing it to get money easily or not because we worked hard for the money. I also spent 10$ on dinner with friends yesterday.

I'm left with 17$ this week. Last week allowance, I have 4$ but I spent it yesterday... lol for breakfast... Well it was Canada's day so I dunno, I kinda was spendy in some way.

As for my challenge money, I found 55$ in one of my jeans pocket and I have no clue where it came from so I'm saving it. I got 10$ as a late birthday gift from my cousin yesterday. I have 65$ to put in my account =D!!

2381$ + 65$ = 2446$

#1 : add money on my challenge money this May. Like my dog expense (20$), my tips money (15$), Yesterday saving, I cleaned the bathroom (1$) and on Friday, I got my economie mark 93% (1$).

Total saved : 1457$

#2 : Tell you guys that I'm currently dating a guy. Well I don't know if I should consider him my boyfriend. I don't feel right at all being in a relationship and I don't think he's my idea guy. Well he is goodlooking =P and he is fun to be with. Make a good guy friend I guess. He is an ambitious guy like me and he own a restaurant (he works everyday) and he is 4 years older than me. What's good about him is that he's not always by my side, so I feel a lot more independant and I'm not impatient to see him. I'm around the same height as him which make me quite uncomfortable. I feel like unsafe around him because he's not taller than me lol.

#3 : start on my math homework. Exam is coming up next week. Hehe... Anyways. Gotta start now before work byebye.

I haven't blog here for a little while. I was so busy with studies in such these last two weeks and I finally got my exams schedule for the mid-June final exams. I have about 4 days of exam and I'm done! guess what? I have no exam on my birthday.... June 20th =P

I spend money this week for my news report presentation and I didn't do well yesterday. I was reading through my notes because I was so nervous... I kinda shake. Ah well... I did 5 min and it's alright I guess. I'll add my saving report tonight.

When will I find friends who I can count on...

Like two years ago and last year, I had friends who I could count on to go out and such...

This year, I don't know anyone who's close to me and I feel obliged to hang out with my old friends from three years ago which we have nothing in commun now and new friends in the group who I don't have anything to talk about.

I feel depressed and I can't wait to finish High school in about two months from now. They are not my type of people at all... I wished to go find another group but I don't know who... I think I made a big mistake to hang with people that are upper level but they are better than people from my grade. Sure I have friends in my class but they are only classmate friends to me...

My team mates and I went to buy food because my house has nothing to eat... I spent 10.72$. I should've pay less but a girl forgot to bring her money which I doubt she really forgot. She never pays for anything because she's quite stingy with her money.

I learned from my two team mates that their parents watch their spending really really really closely. MN's (team mate name cut short) dad watch every details of his bank account, he looked at the price he paid, where he bought it and what kind of things (brand,etc) it is. It is scary... Another team mate FK's mom has her paychecks from her work in her bank account and whenever she wants money to buy something, her mom will ask her a thousand questions. They are overprotecting their kids money and I don't think it's a good way to teach them the value of a dollar. I felt lucky that my parents aren't like that with my money... Thank god.. @.@

I watched a japanese drama yesterday and I finished watching today after work...

It was so sad.I cried in a lot of episodes... It was so sad...

It's a story about a girl who has an incurable disease at the age of 15 and she struggled to live on until she's 25 years old... It was so sad. Each day it went by, her sickness grow worst. You guys can look it up on google for information or watch the drama on Youtube with English subtitle. There's 11 episodes and each of the episode last about an hour. *snif* so sad... Made me not want to study today... Tomorrow I have to study though. I regret choosing this time of the day to watch it but it made me feel better about my life.

*Sigh*... Tomorrow, I'll find the time to update my challenge money.

Not in an insulting way of course.

My little sister is having trouble with maths. I guess it's the language that she's having problem with but also with logical things. I was pissed because my sister just copy and paste in math. I show her how to do it and she just copies in her paper the way I do it. Whenever I ask her, well do you know how to do it by yourself? Her answer : No... I spend an hour trying to teach her the number and I could say that math is not her thing. She still doesn't get it.

I looked over her other math exercises and I asked her : Did you do it by yourself? She said : No, I did it with Diane. I asked her: Then do you know how to do it again (the other exercises). Her answer: No... I gave up on teaching her the same number because I have other things to do and I told her to redo the exercise. She keeps saying : But... I don't know how to do it. Honestly, she keeps saying this without trying first and that's what I hate about her. I love her as a little sister but she has something that I totally dislike... She doesn't try.

Anyways, I update my challenge. I added 2$ on bus ticket because I decided to walk instead of taking the bus, I didn't buy any snacks on my way home (2$) and I got 100% on my push ups test in gym so another 1$ add.

New total on the 28th : 1148$

Today, I bought my lunch with me so I saved 4$ and I didn't spend any money today.

New total on the 29th : 1153$

Today at FPS class (No Broken_Arrow, it's not First-Person shooter xD, it's Formation personelle social in French), we're doing a reasearch on Parties. I chose Quebecois Party(PQ) and Action Democratic Quebec (ADQ), my little project will be to choose two promises on different subjects like Environnement, Education,Economie,etc.

So far, I liked both of them but I'm more leaning forward for the ADQ, they sound more direct and promising than the other parties but... The leader in PQ has a nice smile...

His name is Andree Boisclair :



It looks so friendly don't you think? I also receive a call at my house from his party, they asked me if I have their vote on the March 26th, they are wasting their time, I'm ILLEGAL to vote and I forgot to bring the message to my parents that they called. Although I wasn't planning to tell because it wouldn't matter to my parent and the party puts pressure on me instead of them.

How about Mario Dumont from the ADQ ?



I love his charisma, he looks like a very strong leader who's pretty direct with the public. I totally agree with him in the accomodation problem that we're having in Quebec. He said it doesn't make any sense anymore on reasonable accomodation, we're just giving special treatments to certain nationality. His party called my cousin from next door and they told them to vote for them. Haha...

I haven't finish my research yet and I'm planning to finish it later today. By the way an interesting fact about the PQ Leader, he is gay. =D God... Why good looking men have to be gay? I'm proud that he admits it though even if it could damage his image, I admire his courage for it. By the way, both of the leaders presenting here are in their late 30's... Pretty young I must say but old for me xD.

I came to start my work today at 3 pm. When I got there, I was caught by surprise. Some of my coworkers who work the morning shift said : What? They are going to be 4 workers today! I was like : What?! I went to the other room and I was surprise that another coworker of mine who work the saturday shift came to work today. I asked her what happened and she said that her schedule changed to Sunday because the boss told her that she wanted to change. I told her that I didn't receive any calls from the boss and we didn't agree on changing our schedule this week, it was suppose to be two weeks ago. Then the manager came in and she asked me what I was doing here.

In the end, we got the conclusion wrong. I told her I switch with her last week because I was on vacation and the manager said : Well you're not on vacation every week right? I said : No... I was literaly confused and to make matter worst, a coworker who has no business in there (let's name her M), she said : Yeah but it was suppose to be Rana turn to work and not Christina. The manager told her to keep out of it. After this little confrontation, I knew at the beginning that I was wrong for not checking my schedule this week and for not opening my cell for any important calls from my boss.. I was dead tired that I didn't feel like doing anything even opening my cell. I don't even care if I have to leave to work today since it's not really my day to work. Manager wanted to let Rana decides if she wants to stay or leave and I didn't say anything. In the end, she chooses to leave and I stay.

When I went in the front to work, M was looking at me like she wanted to kill me. I was a little mad because she doesn't even know what was going on in the first place but I didn't say anything. I don't care that she hates me because she's the sort of person who takes everything seriously. But I wanted to punch her so badly to her face when I saw her staring at me like that.